just do it already

well hey hi and hello there to whoever's reading this. it feels weird to sit down and actually type an actual blog post. i feel like i'm typing into the abyss but who knows maybe some of you just might actually give a shit about what goes on in my brain. or maybe you're just curious. either way welcome, grateful you're here. my hope for this is to be a place where i can reflect and deep dive into any topic of my choosing however i wanna talk about it... since yano, it's MY blog. and that's pretty cool. whether it's rambling about random things, or deep topics that weigh on my heart... i'm opening this part of myself to myself, a little more publicly in hopes to connect with more hearts, on a bigger scale . i think there's power in sharing your opinion and your perspective whether it's right or wrong. it opens space for growth and knowledge. at the end of the day, this is for me. but it'd be pretty cool to connect or reach or inspire others too.

this blog has been something in the back storage files of my brain for years now. from my creative writing classes in high school, to watching my dad write my mom love letters growing up and us letters throughout the years, to frantic typing in my iPhone notes, to letters to friends and lovers, to journaling through the alone times. writing has always been one of those things i find it easier to express myself through. i'm able to think about it, simmer on my emotions and articulate how i want to say things. but sometimes it's just free writing, no edit, no point. just something in my day i really found beautiful. a moment of joy i wanna hang onto. a sad day i feel like i need to just get my thoughts out. sometimes it's letters i'll never send but give me peace of mind. writing is freedom. writing is solid. writing is an outlet. it's also an impressive way to connect in a deep way. i think publicly writing and sharing your thoughts is scary. sharing your personal life and feelings is weird and uncomfortable sometimes. i've been intimidated to start a blog for exactly that reason- it's scary and your freedom now feels like it has a cap or limits to it. but i really want to swim in the opposite direction of that current. so we're moving the intimidation to the back burner and full sending.

i think what finally sent me over the edge was a podcast recently i listened to by Leo Skepi. It was basically on what he felt being around rich/productive people has taught him. and one of the points that really resonated with me was along the lines of "productive people do not wait or hesitate to be productive and act on the idea that just came to their mind. they stop what they are doing, they get up and they make moves forward to achieve that idea or goal.' and i thought about that a lot. then i saw one of my friend's blog posts. it all clicked. what am i waiting for on so many levels? what mentally stops me from doing these things on my eventual to-do list? am i consciously pushing it off or is it fair that i've been needing rest and waited to do this? this falls in regard to this blog, to career moves, to living standards, relationships, everything. so when i got home (i was listening on my 1hr drive), i pulled out my laptop and built a website then wrote a rough draft for this post. it's a few weeks later now and i'm rewriting and editing down but do you know how much easier it was to just sit down and edit? instead of thinking about needing to do alllll of this shit to prepare for this moment? it's a simple reminder any effort is better than no effort.

so just do it already. whatever you've been wanting to do, whatever skillset you've been sitting on, whatever hobby you've been wanting to learn, whatever trip you've wanted to plan, whatever job you've been wanting to get. just start. take a step forward. let this be an inspiration to you too to do something for yourself. cause wowww i feel so proud of myself right now! i'm starting! i don't know when i'll post on this, how often, or what i'll talk about. but i'm going to allow myself this space to fuck around and find out. so cheers to chapter one of this blogging journey. if you've made it this far, thank you. and i'll hopefully see you back here for chapter 2.

xo,

Gianna